And the battle continues…

My original issue with my ex came about because he was angry my boyfriend purchased a home for the children and myself in a nice neighborhood. Despite the fact that my kids come from a military family, my ex used the move as a reason to gain custody.. I had uprooted the children from their childhood friends and MY family across the street.. The judge decided those were good arguments and told him he could keep the kids while our divorce played out. 2 years later, I receive an email that my ex and the children have moved. Into a rented house in a particularly crappy neighborhood…

You continue to tell me you want to communicate and make decisions as coparenting regarding the children, when it suits you.
You filed a lawsuit to remove the children from my custody after 14 years of me having physical custody of them because I moved them away from their childhood home into a house that was purchased FOR them in a good school district, with plenty of room to grow. Your complaint was that I was moving a family of military children out of their comfort zone, away from my parents across the street, friendships they had fostered in the neighborhood and schools they were used to. Without discussion, you send me an email that you have done all of these things to move the children to a rented house in the middle of the ghetto. Clearly, I deserve answers as to why your behavior warrants no discussion, why my questions go unanswered and why we are held to different levels of accountability regarding coparenting and responsibility towards the children.
This is the dialogue I get to deal with now:

Me:

I am still paying on a mortgage for a beautiful house that I can’t live in because I can’t get an injunction for protection keeping you off my property, the property you’ve been trespassed from.
You’ve had my vehicle repossessed and I can’t purchase another one because we are still legally married and that would be a joint liability. I’m afraid to sign leases because THAT would be a joint liability. However, you are free to move about and do what you would like. You moved the children away from the general vicinity of my parents, you threw a fit about that, and you somehow, feel like I don’t get to be included In discussions regarding the childrens’ home life and education. Your life goes on, and mine is on legal hold due to a fear of legal repercussions.
Your lawyer has yet to respond to mine regarding summer visitation, something that has set the tone for this awful divorce case. Everything continues to be completed on your time line, and you continue to bully me into not having a say over anything.
As it stands, my request was to have the children on my birthday for the summer. Since we haven’t heard from your lawyer, I’ve picked up shifts for the weekend and will not be In town. Have a great day.

His response:
Denise,
I have tried to discuss you getting the girls. You have continued to try and work through the lawyers. As you see the lawyers are busy and I have been advised to try and arrange among eachother. Why you would not want to with it between the two of us and continue to act like it’s a violent relationship is beyond me. I have suggested in other emails a visitation but you keep referring to your lawyer, eventually we as parents need to discuss without turning to lawyers for every decision.
Sincerely,
Eric

I probably should have just let it go… But I responded;

we have tried to arrange visitation without lawyers before, then you tried to have me arrested for having the children. I act like this is a violent relationship, because it is. You have been jailed and adjucated for your past acts of violence. As you have been advised to try to work something out without lawyers, I have been advised to not negotiate with you without representation, again, due to precedence. I’m sorry that your lawyer is too busy to handle his responsibilities, however, I have done my due diligence in trying to arrange legal visitation with no response.
You like to throw the term around, “we as parents,” when it suits you, but when I have legitimate parenting concerns, there is absolutely no discussion and you continue to mandate life for those around you.
I am still awaiting a response as to why it was ok for you to uproot the children, when you fought so hard to maintain their residence in your neighborhood?

And the response I get is, “they’ll stay in their old schools.”

Well yeah, if I was unemployed living on a GI bill, I’d have unlimited resources and time to shuttle the kids all over the place too… But that’s not even what I was asking? Maybe my words are too big? I constantly feel like I’m beating my head against a brick wall.. I’m supposed to be open and communicative, he gets to dictate when we have conversations. Nothing in my life has changed in regards to him continuing to control, or attempt to control my movements…

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Wtf?

Sometimes after correspondence with my ex, I feel like a walking “that escalated quickly meme.”

Am I missing something? Did I do something offensive in this email where I asked what day a field trip was on? “Is Kid 3 going on a field trip?” I didn’t get a response within 72 hours, so I forwarded it, no words unchanged… And then this:

The reason that nothing was mentioned was because I did not know if I could afford the $110.00. I was able to get the money the night before the forms were due. In all other attempts at getting either you or your family to attend functions you yourself have stated that you cannot take time off work, because you are working 130 hours every two weeks, or you feel unsafe stepping foot into Seminole County. Over and over I have brought up events and the same answer. When your parents weren’t told on one occasion about a concert, you complained about that, so on the next one, we invited them, I paid for the tickets after they said they would go, and then they called and cancelled.
Denise what do you want? You say you cannot take time off work, you say you can’t attend because you feel safe, they reach out to you and must I remind you that the last time that you saw them was December.
So please don’t give me a hard time for not reaching out to you again, when EVERY single time I have been told that you feel unsafe because of me. I have begged you to be involved and every time you would like to, however its unsafe, you are busy, this or that, there is always something preventing you from being involved. Finally when you don’t get the invitation after all the times you have said NO, NO, NO you decide that you are now willing to go and upset that you are not involved.
I ask you this? Have you had any recent conversations with the girls? have you asked them about anything? The field trip chaperoning thing is an adult thing, On that I would say please refer to the above statement about how you are unsafe or to busy and not within the area to attend the functions. however everyday how is it going in your life is something that you can talk to your kids about. Phones are still on 24 hours a day and there are no missed calls on the cell record to them from you.
Eric

What are you even saying? You’re a journalism student that can’t hold major ideas together? I’m not even sure what part of me you’re angry about…

Stalking, as defined…

784.048 Stalking; definitions; penalties.—
(1) As used in this section, the term:
(a) “Harass” means to engage in a course of conduct directed at a specific person which causes substantial emotional distress to that person and serves no legitimate purpose.

Baby Daddy likes to reach out to my parents when he doesn’t get a response from me while he’s playing his little mind games. Anywhere else, and in all of florida except my case, this would clearly be stalking. There’s no reason for him to have any contact with my family or friends at all. I’m quite certain, I’d be in jail if I tried to contact his friends or family, as if I’d have a reason… But here’s an exchange being supervised by our court ordered therapist in response to my asking him not to contact my parents again…

On Feb 26, 2014 9:59 AM, “D ” wrote:
I will ask you, again, to please refrain from communicating with my family. It is not necessary for you to start any sort of dialogue with my parents when any sort of parenting arrangements should be made through myself and you, as parents

[His Response]

I asked your parents if they would like to have the girls for the evening or overnight sometime because the girls miss them. I’m not going through you to arrange that. If they choose not to than thier loss.
Goodday.

Yep, clearly that’s what I said. I’m so mean I never want my kids to see my parents again, that’s what the first email says, right??

Again, the courts and our therapist allow him to harass me and stalk me whenever he wants with no consequence, and should I say anything to redirect or change the behavior, I’m crazy…
It’s embarrassing to me that my poor life decision of marrying a psychopath continues to have intimidating an emotional effects on my family and friends. It’s emotionally draining to carry my own anxiety and guilt about my relationship, but adding to that the stress of feeling like I have to protect everyone I know from Baby Daddy is overwhelming.

Irrational anxieties

It’s been a while since I’ve written about anything other than my legal issues as a result of being a battered wife..: I’ve shied away from posting about any of my weird after effects, PTSD symptoms, or anything Baby Daddy could use against me in regards to the custody of the kids… But the truth of the matter is I do have a lot of weird anxieties and phobias as a result of his actions and I don’t feel like it’s fair that they could be used against me in a battle against me. He broke me, and that deserves some sort of attention..
But I digress. I’m sitting in the car, in the parking lot of the gym, panicking. Only recently have I started driving again, since we got to Tallahassee, I avoid it. I didn’t bring my car with me, and I really don’t want it. The level of independence being responsible for getting myself somewhere is overwhelming for some reason. But Boy started working, and although our boss tries hard to match our schedules up, sometimes I have to drive. So I did it for a couple weeks and I decided I was ready to go back to a gym. One day after dropping Boy off I drove to the gym, dragged myself inside and plopped down cash for a gym membership. There was a point a while ago where the only place I felt safe was the gym.. Somewhere around November of last year, I couldn’t do it anymore. So many people, so many people who want to talk to me… So I bought a weight bench and that worked until we moved here.. I love to work out. I love to run. I hate that things I used to love are difficult for me now because of someone else. I can’t even explain why these things are so difficult. I’m a smart girl, I know this anxiety is not rational, but everyday I sit here for 20 minutes panicking about doing something I want to do.

Birds of a feather

Just a couple weeks ago, BBD was doing the politically correct thing and hating on George Zimmerman, publicly. Today, him and GZ are carrying on a public dialogue, from an account with BBD’s physical address linked to it, despite my begging him to remove that portion of his website for our children’s safety. Despite my views on the entire GZ debacle, basic internet safety rules should prevail. WTF? But more so, way to prove the manipulative side of a narcissistic personality..

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